It was cold a few nights ago. The tip of my little nose turned red as I walked from my car to the door. So, I decided to stay in. Changed in some comfy clothes and started to cook dinner. Yes, I can cook:). It turned out to be a night of my favorite things. Puccini was playing in the background, grabbed my cup of green tea (decaff of course). Don’t you just love antioxidants! I like to drink out of this one cup. It has a deep orange color with black interwoven lines and dots. It makes me feel all cozy, don’t know why.
I started reading some old journal entries. I am talking the good old days. I love writing because it helps me unwind and download my brain. I have discovered a lot about Jesus and myself through my own ramblings. Yes, I like to think about Him because I love Him. And over the years it has become “our special” treat. I can hear Him more clearly or loudly I should say when I write to Him. And the beauty of it all is that He writes back to me, not on paper but on my heart.
Some of the entries were long and detailed. Yes, you could say I was going in circles. So, I had to get another cup of tea. Others were short: “Dear God, I want to talk to you but I have to go. I am already running late. I promise I will write when I get back. I love you!” I wonder whether God grabbed a cup of green tea when He was reading the long entries:) I know He was smiling and shaking His head when He was reading the short ones. Probably saying: “Child of mine, what am I going to do with you”.
The timer went off. I realized my rosemary chicken & roasted potatoes were done.I love rosemary. And it smelled delicious, almost like mom’s. I was thinking about what I had read on my journals. I found a common theme. God makes NO mistakes! Today is His will for my life. It was like my heart caught up with my mind and voilà, déjà vu! God, very carefully, had orchestrated everything for His purposes and glory. I saw traces of His protection. Everything I was denied from Him in those entries was for my protection and discipline. He gave them back to me. And after He did, I didn't see my "want" anymore, only His radiant glory. Each time His blessings were better, fuller, more abundant than I ever dreamed. I saw how He longed to bless me if I only let Him. And that brought me to tears.
As I was eating my dinner, my soul feasted on the reality that my God makes NO mistakes! That satisfied my soul like no granted “want” ever could! I have tried other places, but the only place my soul finds rest is in His Will alone. My dear reader, if you were denied something you wanted, I pray that you would be excited and full of anticipation, just like a child at Christmas morning. I know that unwrapped gift will be PERFECT, because it will be His Will!
Live by faith not by sight. All God's promises are "Yes" in Christ!
Love you all deeply!
