The theme of my day today was residue. That word kept lingering in my head all day today. I just could not shake it. So, I got home and asked God to show me what all this was about. I love how faithful He is to me and to us. He showed me that residue is the aftermath of a process. If you have ever been in a chemestry or physics lab after every experiment there is residue to clean up. It's usually proof that a process has occured, good or bad, residue is inevitable. When is good, it's so anticipated and welcomed and longed for. But when it’s ugly we try to ignore it, stuff it so far down that we “forget” it’s even there. But somehow it always comes up whether we want it to or not.
So, I just had to ask God to tell me what does my residue looks like. After all this processing, what are the names of my residue? One thing He reassured me is that He will always work out everything, good or bad, for His good and for my good. So, my residue was titled anger, doubt, fear and blame. Ugh, talk about ugly! So, today I was angry, doubtful, fearful and casted out blame left and right all in the name of love. I love our humanity but at the same time it’s so perfectly flowed. Ah, I am so grateful I have a Savior! Today He was MY Jesus. I clinged to His Name like a child to a mother’s arms. I kept saying His sweet name Jesus…Jesus over and over till it saturated every ounce of me. I just needed to hear it out loud. And He kept saying over and over in a gentle whisper “I am here”… “I am here”.
And my imperfect human existence found rest. I was at peace again. In an instant the anger was replaced with love, the doubt with faith, the fear with hope and blame with repentance. Yes, my dear reader, all of this all in one day’s worth. It never seizes to amaze me how we do the things we don’t want to do and don’t do the things we want to do and do all knowingly. As God’s creation we are so uniquely gifted and uniformly flowed by design so where we are weak He is strong.
Usually I would end with a prayer but tonight I would like to remind you of the sweet, gentle whisper “I am here” said the Lord. There is power in His Name!
Love you all deeply!
